“and here goes my story.”

September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 February 2013 June 2013 December 2013 January 2014

sever these lines please.
cause where you go, i'll go.
just dont you dare lose us cause im blind.

and then i know i have to change,
i'll be stronger and tougher,
why did i let my walls fall in the first place?
i let myself get used to so many things,
so im not gonna say im tired no more.
i've had enough of resting already,
cause its the time to stop.
i have the world to account to,
cause everything needs me.
feelings dont hinder me,
i can keep them inside yo.

it scary how you get what you want and when you put that nil to minimal effort,
the moment you expect something and it always does go that way, i might say maybe I'm in a dream and I'm still acting like i don't know.
I'm just lying to everyone ain't i,
whats this show I'm putting up?
i don't even know who i am or what am i doing here anymore.
as in, whats the point? i could scoff at myself all day for being such a fake.
this is contentment?
no there's no word for this, all i can muster up is phony.
and i really wanna hurl that at myself.
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no, i don't think you'll understand. really.
not even i managed to delve deep enough to put my thoughts into coherent sentences.
just writing whatever comes and the whole picture is actually one big question mark..
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I got into nationals.
cant tell you how this huge assortment of feelings feels like,
i guess I'll have get used to things all over again,
just like how we have, time and again.
it'll be a whole new thing with new people.
obviously things wont be the same already,
reckon we shouldn't let ourselves be too affected,
but no one can seriously not think about what they have to face don't they?
it ain't easy and will not be for a while now.
strength we have,
and yes i think I'll pull through everything at the moment,
but well, who knows about the future?
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half time increased, ={
but i wont let it bother me no more,
just gimmie a lil time okay!

gonna go study today,
though i dont expect i'll be able to concentrate, haha!
so bored,
everything's such a bore that the only sparks are those you give,
result of all that i could get used to this moments huh..
and
tryouts are coming..
muahahah.

the days are drawing to a close.

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