oh great.my hair's finally dry and its 6.23am.may i ask whats the use of sleeping for half an hour?
i might not even wake up.--
oops.mummy just came out and told me i'll surely get censured by dad.--
she was supposed to be sleeping.LOL

just now when i was bathing she suddenly came up to the door and asked me if i was crazy taking a bath at this ungodly hour.and she thought i just woke up or sth! lmao
well i guess sometimes a white lie wouldnt hurt.BUT she found out eventually,like 3 seconds later..
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cause she suddenly remembered i worked till late ytd night. ahahaha..*moment of silence...
anw the long and short of the conversation was that she counldnt take it anymore im sixteen and cant continue to put my poor health at stake like what i am doing now.(omg she knows i dont drink water?!)and the conclusion was she asked me to quit at 10 feb OR ELSE.
YES 10 feb.
cut my head off now.
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HOW ON EARTH AM I GONNA SUMMON THE GUTS TO GO MENTION IT TO MY MANAGER AGAIN?!
okay im gna continue with the 'or else'.
or else she'll send my dad to speak to her.
wtf imagine that.it will be like two worlds colliding haha NOT.
fine whatever.* jumps around and pulls hair out

fiona went to school already at 5.40 she was sleeping like a pig like 1 hour ago LOL.

lmao shh dont tell her.

OK.an update on what happened in the time elapsed btween my last post and this.
a few hours.to be exact.
after i published the post,i looked up the post in my blog,
saw lixing's tag,clicked her link,
and spent the next few hours surfing for updates on my schoolmates life.
the things people get up to these days..=___=
okay fine im jealous okay.
some people are seriously getting along on fast forward in all departments,
while me....
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even i dont know what the heck is wrong with me.
ask me a question and i might answer it exactly the way i would last year.
whilst they,they even talk different. looks wayyyyy different too.
its like riverside was a school for nurturing stars.
because thats the way i look at them now,seeing stars.
a million stars.
i wonder and admire and aspire to be like them-but its all too far away.
a distant diamond sky.
sighs.makes me think what kind of life im leading now.
it seriously sucks when you compare and find yourself dull and worthless.

aw,brighten up!i wont think of those things right now that im running on null hours of snore.
its almost seven but why isnt the sky getting brighter?=/
okay im dog tired like majorly.ugh.im squinting at the screen.=S
thinking of the 5 hours of work before me makes me queasy.
well i cant puke anw i havent eaten anything for like 10hours?WTF.
lols my words are jumbled up im in such a hurry to get over and done with the things i wna say.
crepes and doughnuts.
mummy's kp-ing me again.say i xin ruan,say how am i going to get through work later.(i dont care i hope i make a mistake like spilling boiling water all over the customers so i get sacked muahahaha.)

Hey!=[.its not as easy as she says ehs.
like say quit then quit etc.--
its not that easy.
like i said before its about politics and im a major loser at that!!!!
grahhhh.
okay i shall stop elaborating on this infuriating topic and get on with what i wanted to say which is i have no determination whatsoever regarding my motives and things i set out to do which is EVERYTHING.=__________=
Yes.thats why life's been grey and robotic for me.well it goes by quick but you'll never catch me not wondering what am i doing with my life right now.
you see,no motivation =no determination well for me anyway.
dont get my point?(arghh im getting nagged at right this very moment about not sleeping.thanks alot mum. X[[[ )
i mean the goal i set for myself to sleep before 12am.guess what?i've never been able to fulfil that 99% of the time like literally.such nice satisfaction.its been getting worse lately im sleeping at 5am nowadays and i've officially hit an all time low by not sleeping AT ALL haha.not funny.--
then i find myself dreading work and meeting people.YES meeting people inc relatives if im not careful i might just turn anti-social+laconic and thats byebye to lena or lane already.
(now my dad's scolding me threatening to rip down the shop if i dont resign quick.SEE?!?!always thinks the world revolves around him somehow.what are they getting so keyed up about anyway roars.)
did i say i'll get off these depressing topics?
yes i did.
then i have nothing to say.
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BYE LAH.off to put on my mask and WORK UGH.