but i really cant risk letting my gpa to drop below 2.0,

i wouldnt have cared if it wasn't for the fact that my world is now interdependent on it.

If im out, i really wont be able to take it, who could? if your world just collapses?

Maybe, that accounts for my angst towards everything.

Now im juggling so many things- though most of them are in my mind- i dont know how to react when i found out about something.

well, i've aligned my world so much just to live beside it, now it seems so unstable.

Was it really worth the headaches and time?

oh yes, time. How much time have i spent, i cant even measure it already.

every second slices like a blade to the heart, but the doubts still wont stop increasing.

Now im afraid of the future.